“Dear Summer…”

“Dear Summer, I know you ‘gon miss me, forever we’ll be together like Nik’ Airs and crisp Ts…”

Whew, I do not even know where to begin. First and foremost, I would like to apologize to my regular readers. I have not posted purposefully because aside from everything going with getting back to school and getting situated, I wanted to really think about this summer, find the correct words to express what this summer has done, or has not done, for me.

To begin with, this summer was definitely epic; not in the sense that it was so memorable due to fun, but because of the lessons Summer had to offer. I was a bit reluctant to listen to what Summer had to say, but with Summer’s persistence, I had no choice but to finally give in.

Lesson #1: Blessings truly wear disguises
I was doing everything in my power to not go home this summer. I wanted more than anything to be able to stay in Atlanta. However, God had another plan for me. I went home, made excellent money, and  was able to handle more than half of my expenses for college: making it back, having money to set up my suite, books (*sucks teeth*) and still have money for myself. More importantly, I was able to form even stronger bonds and relationships with my family. The few arguments I had with my parents only made us closer when we were finished. Lastly, my older cousin, Key and I expounded upon our relationship and although I never told her, it HURT to leave her house that last time knowing it would be a long time before I saw her again. She is just like my sister, and it were not for her being there (even when I did not inform her that I was having a problem) I do not know what emotional state I would be in right now. I love you Key-No

Lesson #2 “I Don’t Want Nobody But You…”
That quote from Trey Songz song, “One Love” constantly replayed in my head the entire summer. I began dealing with a certain individual, things were amazing in the beginning, and as we became serious, things became even better. It was almost too good to be true, that is because it was. It did not take long for me to see this person’s true colors. The lesson in this is, no matter how much you think you like someone, if liking them becomes detrimental to you and your emotional state, LET THEM GO! At the end of the day, you must look out for you. I just wish I would have taken heed to my own advice earlier on, I would have saved myself from an extreme and unnecessary amount of internal turmoil. I just wanted to hold on to the person they were when we met, not the person they became (well, who they were all along). What I’m saying here is, you can only give someone so many chances before your mind steps in and gives you that wake up call. I tried, no matter how dirty they did me, to find good in them. Then, it got to the point where I was making myself look like a fool, making excuses for their behavior, PAUSE: that is a no-no, and one should never engage in that. I’m not bitter about the situation nor am I attempting to slander that person, they are good people, I guess it just was not written in either of our books to be together…or at this moment at least…

Overall, this summer has taught me so much about myself, and what I did not learn, I already knew, but was constantly attempting to avoid the truth of the matter. What I took from this summer more than anything is to live life for yourself. Do what makes you happy and hold onto friendships, bonds, relationships etc, that are worth it. If someone is fighting just as hard as you are to keep the flame burning, then you know that is a worthwhile investment. As summer is rapidly coming to a close, I reflect and realize that summer was not eventful, yet what I took from summer outweighs any event.

Tomorrow is the first day of school, of Junior year. I sit here almost in disbelief to the reality that I only have one more year left in my undergraduate experience. I still remember graduation, being only 16, and now I’m 19, a Junior, God is good. If you ever feel like you cannot make it, fall to your knees and leave it at the alter. Pray for me readers. I will post tomorrow about the first day of school

-M. Worthington III

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